I went back to NTU on wednesday to settle some admin with my friend. It was a long trip, but one that I secretly wished for some time. I guess I still like to study, despite all the exams and stresses that come along the way. It's a comfort zone of 16 years, and I'm finally out of it.
And as I recounted my old days back in school, I think there are many loose ends to tie up, but never managed to.
What if I went on an exchange in Sweden?
What if I took on more CCAs? How would it change my perspective on things?
What if I stayed in hall? What kinda friends would I have right now?
What if I was kinder to the people who were indifferent?
I don't regret all that I have not done, but some of these questions will just remain to be just questions. Would you be curious?
Curiousity has nearly killed the cat. To all you university hunks and babes, don't live your university life with too many "what if"s. Or worst still.. with even more "what the hell.."s.
Had a conversation with a good friend recently, and there were also questions on his mind.
What if I wasn't too busy with schoolwork to notice the hot girls in school?
I had that question too. And so did you =)
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A shoutout to Weiliang, I come to NTU and u're not there... wha lau ehhh.
To Cicil, nice lunch man. Great company quenches lousy food.
Shufen, hope you get your masters soon. And let this day mark the beginning of your long trips to the journey to the west.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009
My appreciations and gratitudes
I'm just thinking back, 7 days from CNY.. I will be on my first job as a welding engineer. I'm so grateful for such a wonderful opportunity to work in one of the busiest companies in the offshore industry. It'll be a outdoor work kinda stuff, supervising and planning and making sure no cock ups happen before we knock off. My first job after months and months of restless searching and lazing at home. It's time to go out and get rough n' tough.
To Lester Phong, if you're reading this, you're in for a great treat. If it weren't for u, there wouldn't be this. To my lab mate whom I work with illegally till the wee hours of the morning, here's a tribute to you and many more =)
Just to recap, he was the one who forward my name to the commissioning department, and i got a reply just the day after for an interview. Despite my weird engineering background (materials engineering is still very unheard of), the interviewers were very soft on me and there was no issue on my Degree. The second and third interviews followed, and I found myself with a job as a commissioning engineer by the end of november. However, something interesting happened in the third interview..
It was an interview with none other than the second man of The Company himself, Mr Wong Kok Seng. I could remember his name so clearly because my name is Wong Kwan Seng. He was an operations director, and after reviewing my profile, He thought I was more suited to be a welding engineer. I was like.. this is so materials science, I would love it man! And I told him "I would also be open to your suggestion.." And I never expect to land a position in that field which is also dream job I would look for, and even better, to put what i learn in school to good use.
I've passed the medical 3 weeks ago, and i'm in the clean bill of health for the job. Thank God for my still perfect eyesight, and incredibly, perfect hearing after so much abuse from Walkman and drumming.
To the nurse who attended to me that day, thank you for not jabbing my already swollen arm for any blood tests.
To Lester Phong, if you're reading this, you're in for a great treat. If it weren't for u, there wouldn't be this. To my lab mate whom I work with illegally till the wee hours of the morning, here's a tribute to you and many more =)
Just to recap, he was the one who forward my name to the commissioning department, and i got a reply just the day after for an interview. Despite my weird engineering background (materials engineering is still very unheard of), the interviewers were very soft on me and there was no issue on my Degree. The second and third interviews followed, and I found myself with a job as a commissioning engineer by the end of november. However, something interesting happened in the third interview..
It was an interview with none other than the second man of The Company himself, Mr Wong Kok Seng. I could remember his name so clearly because my name is Wong Kwan Seng. He was an operations director, and after reviewing my profile, He thought I was more suited to be a welding engineer. I was like.. this is so materials science, I would love it man! And I told him "I would also be open to your suggestion.." And I never expect to land a position in that field which is also dream job I would look for, and even better, to put what i learn in school to good use.
I've passed the medical 3 weeks ago, and i'm in the clean bill of health for the job. Thank God for my still perfect eyesight, and incredibly, perfect hearing after so much abuse from Walkman and drumming.
To the nurse who attended to me that day, thank you for not jabbing my already swollen arm for any blood tests.
Hey to all u guys who are reading this blog.. wanna give a shout out to my peeps and wish them a happy new year!
Jessel, Sebastian, Soo Huei, John, Benedict, Collin and all the other drummers I didn't mention, appreciate your friendship man. Looking forward to working more with you all next time.
My cell group N430, you guys are the best. Yubing, Angeline, Jinlian and GJ, weiliang, better than all the rest! whahaha.
Lilian, Sze Yin, Adam, my NTU peeps. We all got a job as our big angpow sia =)
Joel, Whye Heng, my brothers from different mothers, you all made my past 10 years smell like a nice breeze. Thanks!
Jessel, Sebastian, Soo Huei, John, Benedict, Collin and all the other drummers I didn't mention, appreciate your friendship man. Looking forward to working more with you all next time.
My cell group N430, you guys are the best. Yubing, Angeline, Jinlian and GJ, weiliang, better than all the rest! whahaha.
Lilian, Sze Yin, Adam, my NTU peeps. We all got a job as our big angpow sia =)
Joel, Whye Heng, my brothers from different mothers, you all made my past 10 years smell like a nice breeze. Thanks!
Saturday, January 24, 2009
A thought
Sometimes when u get presented with a truth,
it is really the best defence against a lie,
or even worse to live the lie out,
And u end up kicking urself in the butt.
The saddest thing to know is that at the end of the day,
when u have done this and got ur medals shiny for a parade,
it really doesn't matter if you're up the wrong tree,
but would you dare to lose your leverage and take on the cloth of humiliation?
Would you tolerate 50 years of boredom?
And give that up for a most important hour of your life?
If everything you did in your life you thought was crap,
Would you smoke some weed, or give your life a final run for its money?
When you are hoping against the fierest of odds,
know that someone has worn ur shoe of faith,
that he has fought well and hard for what's worth in his life,
And know that you have everything in ur hands to do the same.
There are things I believe and know to be true,
is no longer true anymore,
If life could only be expressed in simplicity,
But that's why people have blogs to tell u how impossible it really is.
it is really the best defence against a lie,
or even worse to live the lie out,
And u end up kicking urself in the butt.
The saddest thing to know is that at the end of the day,
when u have done this and got ur medals shiny for a parade,
it really doesn't matter if you're up the wrong tree,
but would you dare to lose your leverage and take on the cloth of humiliation?
Would you tolerate 50 years of boredom?
And give that up for a most important hour of your life?
If everything you did in your life you thought was crap,
Would you smoke some weed, or give your life a final run for its money?
When you are hoping against the fierest of odds,
know that someone has worn ur shoe of faith,
that he has fought well and hard for what's worth in his life,
And know that you have everything in ur hands to do the same.
There are things I believe and know to be true,
is no longer true anymore,
If life could only be expressed in simplicity,
But that's why people have blogs to tell u how impossible it really is.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
The heavy heart,
The burdened mind,
A restless soul,
A light that needs to shine
Why does it ache,
Why does it screams for justice,
I know this isn't fake,
On this poem that I thought i never make.
Come away with me,
And i will show you more,
What it really means,
to be gutted back and forth
What the mouth couldn't speak,
The heart gives a silent scream,
Tell myself not to be weak,
That I will not walk with a limb.
The hour is here,
And i can smell my victory's beer,
I will stand and fight,
With every ounce of my might.
Bring my enemies on,
and I will walk over their heads,
Thank you God for giving me my form,
And in you I will give my all.
The burdened mind,
A restless soul,
A light that needs to shine
Why does it ache,
Why does it screams for justice,
I know this isn't fake,
On this poem that I thought i never make.
Come away with me,
And i will show you more,
What it really means,
to be gutted back and forth
What the mouth couldn't speak,
The heart gives a silent scream,
Tell myself not to be weak,
That I will not walk with a limb.
The hour is here,
And i can smell my victory's beer,
I will stand and fight,
With every ounce of my might.
Bring my enemies on,
and I will walk over their heads,
Thank you God for giving me my form,
And in you I will give my all.
I've been thinking quite a bit recently, or rather, I'm very much of a thinker la. And it brought me back to where my roots really lie, my self-esteem.
Sometimes I do wonder if my natural tendency to quietness really stems from all the crap of primary school bullying. As far as I remember in my youth, I am quite a vocal kid. The biggest problem was probably me irritating people. =) And that got me into alot of trouble. I got put into a cell (yeah, they did that in kindergarden), caned, tied up, blah and blah. From sec 3, i never really found the urge to dig out the outspokenness that was once found in my childhood.
Who am I, really?
What am I truly capable of?
What do I have that others don't?
Am I really accepting of myself, or am I tolerating myself?
Do I always look jaded, and why so?
These are questions that probably probe u guys from time to time. I'm not sure if I have answers to all I just asked about myself.
Life is a journey where u would always realise things about urself u never knew. When would we truly arrive at this point where I can say, I've arrived?
When would I come to the point where my mistakes are so insignificant, that it doesn't prevent me from reaching what I'm called to do in this thing called "destiny"?
Give me some answers, and I'll give u a penny for ur thoughts..
Sometimes I do wonder if my natural tendency to quietness really stems from all the crap of primary school bullying. As far as I remember in my youth, I am quite a vocal kid. The biggest problem was probably me irritating people. =) And that got me into alot of trouble. I got put into a cell (yeah, they did that in kindergarden), caned, tied up, blah and blah. From sec 3, i never really found the urge to dig out the outspokenness that was once found in my childhood.
Who am I, really?
What am I truly capable of?
What do I have that others don't?
Am I really accepting of myself, or am I tolerating myself?
Do I always look jaded, and why so?
These are questions that probably probe u guys from time to time. I'm not sure if I have answers to all I just asked about myself.
Life is a journey where u would always realise things about urself u never knew. When would we truly arrive at this point where I can say, I've arrived?
When would I come to the point where my mistakes are so insignificant, that it doesn't prevent me from reaching what I'm called to do in this thing called "destiny"?
Give me some answers, and I'll give u a penny for ur thoughts..
Saturday, January 10, 2009
I just went to the library today, after graduating from school for almost like 5 months? I went through the shelves to find some books on welding, and when i got down comfy on a chair, I did wat I always do before reading, SLEEP.
So i woke up to a blurry eye and starting reading what my future works gonna be all about. It hasn't really sunk in yet, this whole job thing. But i'm looking forward to it like it's my new day in school!~
Nothing much to rant about, I'm as happy as a goose for now. I gotta get down and dirty on getting some yearly resolutions right. My planning's just halfway man. Someone help me plan my itinerary for this yr and I will pay ya. Sure helps when people do ur work for ya. =)
Alright, come back in a while. I will learn to add pictures to my blog next time. =)
Gabb
So i woke up to a blurry eye and starting reading what my future works gonna be all about. It hasn't really sunk in yet, this whole job thing. But i'm looking forward to it like it's my new day in school!~
Nothing much to rant about, I'm as happy as a goose for now. I gotta get down and dirty on getting some yearly resolutions right. My planning's just halfway man. Someone help me plan my itinerary for this yr and I will pay ya. Sure helps when people do ur work for ya. =)
Alright, come back in a while. I will learn to add pictures to my blog next time. =)
Gabb
Monday, January 05, 2009
Hey people, as u can see, i have been super on off about blogging... with entries 1 to 2 yrs apart. Excuse me for it ah. Hahaha.
I guess I will start writing all those poems that i have in my heart one day. It's more of an expression of the many things that goes on in my life, in a non-narrative mode. And for those who have been looking out for me, I really wanna thank you here and when I do see you, I'll make sure u know who u are. =)
2009 is here, and in a way i'm thankful for 2008 that has passed me like a sneeze. There are so many pains in that short one year, as well as joy that will become throphies in my life. Finishing my degree, my SOT graduation, and getting a job in the darkness of economic times. And there were those late nights where i could blown up my lab because I didn't wanna take it anymore, and the days of helplessness accompanying joblessness.
Been feeling abit nostalgic listening to an old song that i've grown up with. The rainbow connection by Kermit. Feels so good to hear it all over again. Adam thanks for that song post.
I guess I'm still quite contented with old stuff. I'm a wuss for sentimentalism. Take away my PSP or computer for my ninja turtles.
So random are my posts, but only because i'm catching up for months of hiatus. I will try my best not to be on hiatus too long. Stay tuned!
I guess I will start writing all those poems that i have in my heart one day. It's more of an expression of the many things that goes on in my life, in a non-narrative mode. And for those who have been looking out for me, I really wanna thank you here and when I do see you, I'll make sure u know who u are. =)
2009 is here, and in a way i'm thankful for 2008 that has passed me like a sneeze. There are so many pains in that short one year, as well as joy that will become throphies in my life. Finishing my degree, my SOT graduation, and getting a job in the darkness of economic times. And there were those late nights where i could blown up my lab because I didn't wanna take it anymore, and the days of helplessness accompanying joblessness.
Been feeling abit nostalgic listening to an old song that i've grown up with. The rainbow connection by Kermit. Feels so good to hear it all over again. Adam thanks for that song post.
I guess I'm still quite contented with old stuff. I'm a wuss for sentimentalism. Take away my PSP or computer for my ninja turtles.
So random are my posts, but only because i'm catching up for months of hiatus. I will try my best not to be on hiatus too long. Stay tuned!
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